It's a boy!.... At least 80%

Sorry I'm lateeeee! Had the detailed scan, my naughty precious made the sonographer kinda headache. Haha his face was facing up all the way, even after I went out for a 10 mins walk. Sonographer lady kept giving out those laughs like "Haha... Really cannot.... How ah... Haha..." which is really stress and funny at the same time. It makes it hard to measure his rump, which is the circumference of his head from above. It was only until the late part after various tries of coughing and shaking my belly then she has a better view. So... The second most important thing after all the organs and part were present was.... Gender! My shy baby had his legs closed all the way. At the wits end, she hand over to another lady to see if luck is with her lol, but it's still the same, so when she was going to give up, she asked me to lie on my left side. And suddenly the second lady exclaimed "EH?" while pointing to the screen and the first lady hurry went to screen. So tada! My ah boy opened a little, and she say okay... It's a boy. 80%. Cos she saw something which looks like penis. I would like to thank both of them cause they really give their efforts. And they were just as anxious as us. Haha. Dear told me something I feel absurd.... He wanted a girl becos he don't need to bring her out alone as he can't bring her to the toilet. What kind of reason is this. What a shallow person omg lol. Then we start to think about the name.... Deciding between Elijah or Isaiah... Still not decided yet lol. It'll be with him for life leh! Must decide seriously. Lol and as always, -.- when asked a serious question no answer among our friends is appropriate. Dear son, I can't wait to kiss you. Dear husband I can't wait to box you.

I felt you

Went to YouTube to kill my time while waiting for dear to be home. Saw this video showing a very obvious kicking at 20 weeks, I'm 20 weeks now. Thou I can feel baby kicking all the time but I doubt I can see it so I lie on my back and observed. After a min When I feel the kick I can seriously see my belly moving! Hahaha. Very incredible feeling!!! I love bb!! And I love this man who bought my angel to me. Lol. Next tues!! 3 more daysss!!!

Please go back to your balance.

I've never drop a tear for my life before.... Be it good or bad , poor or rich. I always take it very easily and believe things would get better. And now I am crying like a dog about how life is fucking me hard. Things that appear in my head just get worst. Just a moment ago I'm feeling happy and now depressed? Wtf. Hormones is really powerful. Stop making me. I'm not like this, and I don't like it.

I want to see my precious!!

My god my god. I can't wait for next scan! 24thhhhh come faster please! Btw, I can already feel precious moving. Haha. So active! Whenever I feel the flutters everything unhappy just fly away~ thou it came back awhile later.hahaha. My hubby is so sweet today. Not like ytd. Ps me the whole day humph. I love you do much! Hahaha.

My patience is getting bad.

I wish I could express it out like how she did. Everytime I fake that smile while address her I just turn around and sigh. Nobody I can say it to, I'm not in any position to comment about it. Am I so detestable? I honestly think that I did what I can being a dil, you did nothing as a mom not even mil. Your son is in a very down period, instead of understanding you brought him more problems. To me, if you have never try to help our problems, you have no right to comment about it. Before you wanna say how bad we did, think about have you try to help? Only pushing us deeper and deeper. Probably it's my hormones, but I'm worried I might just ignore her one day. You want people to respect you, respect others first, no matter how old are you, this is the rule.

How heartless.

It's heart wrenching to realise she don't care about her grandchild at all. I don't mind how she wants to treat me, but I can't stand it when she don't even bother about my bb. Consistently cooking for unrelated friends but i don't see her cooking for her grandchild, but nvm, don't cook better, so I don't need to decide whether my bb needs to address her grandma anot. I can see it in the genes. Lol.

Everyday see hubby work till so unhappy, I feel so unhappy too. I know that kind of feeling.... And you still have to fucking drag yourself to hell. Haha. I love you alright muacks muacks. 不要不开心，老婆在这里。