Friday, June 29, 2012

The only heartbeat I can feel.


Been pressing on my belly and I can really feel a heartbeat that's not mine which is on a very high frequency. I keep thinking its just my mind messing with me, but after I told dear to try he say he can feel it too!!! Haha and he was so excited keep shouting 有leh有leh!!!

lol. - My pay is really shit of the shit.... I'm really so fucking stress and unhappy. Stupid hormones. So much things in my mind, gonna explode!

Thursday, June 28, 2012

Im back, recording these precious moments.

Hey yo. I'm back!

 Wa its been 2 years since I last blogged. I can see spiders building empire here already. Lol. But here I am again! I know there are no one following this blog, but what makes my drive of continuing is the lil precious life within me. Yes I'm expecting! Found out about the angel on 9th of April. Actually even before the actual day of my suppose menstruation I already had this very strong hunch that I'm having a baby, lol. I kept telling him and reminded him so he can be prepared but he kinda entertain me everytime I say it lol. So after I missed my menses I'm even more affirm of it, a few days later we had the test and it was positive, I can totally see his sibei shagg face the next few days lolol. I was really surprise at his reaction thou... Well, he did propose to me last sept 2011, but I know that ring is just to get back together, cos everytime I talk about marriage he goes all frustrated. I always wanted a baby...He think we are not ready, But now I consider myself lucky I got pregnant at the stage that we are both working, and not like still jobless and hanging around, thou he still got all depressed. Lol. I was very happy at that point thou i sense the stress coming along. FYI, I'm a super optimistist while he is super pessimistic! Hahaha. Not easy ya. Trying to assure everything will be alright is really tiring cos he is always telling me we can't handle it. So we scheduled for the ROM on 20 May. 520 oh~ haha. Getting married is NOT easy. Or you can simply consider it as TEDIOUS. There are so much thing to do, inviting a solemnizer, look out for banquets, going bridal fair for wedding photo packages, and I don't even wanna mention that tradition of Chinese omg! Thou we did all that, but we did it very simple. We signed up the photoshoot package at 2k in a bridal fair with Bridal Zone, Grace, at Marina Square, she is nice, and agreed to give us alot of things out of package. Did the betrothal with the help of Irene, His ex manager, she is so nice to agree to be our mei ren. Brought the pig trotter cans and betrothal angbao up to give mom. He kept complaining everything is so troublesome lol. I start to wonder.... Am I really the one he wanna marry home.... We quarrel alot... And we nearly gave it up... I was really determined, I couldn't take it. I need alot of support during this period. So many things to do and I'm always feeling tired the first 3months of my pregnancy, probably he still haven really feel that fact, so he don't understand... We separated a few days. He asked for a chance back after a few days.... I agreed. As long as there's a chance I'm willing to work it out... And this is what always fail me. Rather than having banquet, we decided to make a small party with friends in Hotel Re! Suite room, as I'm kinda attracted to the waterbed and jacuzzi in room hahaha. So now the problem issss, we need table and chair setting in order for the solemnization to be held, initially we wanted to bring our own table and chairs(laughs), but realise it's a bad idea as we got no transport to bring them. Hence we contacted the event coordinator to enquire what could be done, so we went down to take a look at the suite room, we immediately decide on the silver suite as the colour is nicer and there's a hanging chair in there! So cute haha. They told us they could arrange the settings for us at a cost of $300(exclude gst) on top of the room rate.... Bo bian circumstance so we accepted the proposal. Next we went down to choose the gown at boon keng area. They seems quite rush but I can understand cos we went quite late haha, and I don't like to troublesome people so I swiftly chose my gown. And dear were quite excited, cos they has the coat which make him look like han kok(Korean). Lolol.
Childish Daddy-to-Be.




On the actual day, everything went smoothly... Except that the jacuzzi is not working (but anyway I'm not allowed to bathe in there, not good for baby) and! Calvin was so nice to bring his ps3 as dear wouldn't allow me, but the tv couldn't connect it. Sot! 
He wants the korean feel. lolol



 

With Jo and Zy.


















 

 

 


Thanks guys.



 


 





 

 

 

 








 

 





 



 

 

 


Jacuzzi Bathtub
i love the toilet.
Hanging Chair!


Very nice mirror.


Waterbed.... my god its really very comfortable.







P.S What Kind Of Fucked Up Photo Arrangement has Blogger Got?????!!!!

But anyway Thanks everyone who came! I really enjoyed this day I became Mrs lee. Unknown everything ahead. Lol! Went to kkh for check up on 22/05, see my precious for the first time. I ask the sonographer if I can have a picture of it afterwards she say provided if she can sees it. I thought I might be able to see it(I was 12 weeks along), BUT! The moment the scan touches my belly, I can see it so clearly! My tears just went down, so amazing, I have a life inside me.
                                                  

Dear didn't went with me as he gotta work , but he promised to go with me the next time. Took blood for test. Arranged the OSCAR scan(scanning for down syndrome) on 1st of June, so worried. On 1st June we did the scan and dear was able to see his baby too. Thou he look so puzzled trying to understand the scan but he really seems excited, and he ask if can see the gender haha. I know you are so concern! Initially he strongly wanted a boy, but now he say girl is better, sweeter. Haha. No matter the gender, we just want a healthy baby! See the assistant to know the results and..... Result is excellent! What a relief!
                                                  
                                                Only 1 week, precious grow alot! Hehehe. <3<3

My next appointment will be on 29th June which is tmr(I'm now 17 weeks along! :) ), but decided not to go back to kkh as the service there is really kinda bad. And we chose Thomson Medical Centre's Dr Wong whose clinic is just at gombak mrt so we need not travel so far for appointments. Search thru the webs and forum to see reviews about him, it turned out he really does has alot of praises, No bad remarks yet. Feel safer now. Lol, wanted to make the appointment tmr, but as the slots are fully booked, so become next thurs,might have a chance of knowing the gender! Hohoho, and it's been a month since i last saw bb, very worried! Need my piece of mind. 
 My bumps are more obvious now.

Through the weeks that I'm not having any checkup or scan, I'm really very worried. As I had a very bad cough, I'm still coughing now and it's nearly 3 weeks alr! I went to see 2 doctors in between, the first doctor at bukit gombak is crap. He sees me not even 1 min and ask me out alr. As expected, I didn't recover after finish his med. and I'm having real neck pains and itchy throat which makes me couldn't sleep at night! Worst nightmare I ever experienced. After going to the second doctor at bukit batok, who is obviously so much better and concerned, got several medicines, cost me $60 T_T can die cannot sick. Lol. I don't understand how can I give out so much noises in my sleep, well since young I have this symptom, whenever I'm going to be sick I will give out this buzzing sound during my sleep, depends on the level of illness, the sound will get louder and intense. Lol. And for this time I make the noise even when I'm trying to sleep. I can hear it, but it didn't disturb me at all... But it definitely disturb hubby. Lol, but I can't control it at all sia. My apologies dearest hubby. Im recovering now, very slowly thou. Haha better than nothing. At least my ache is gone for good. I'm currently working as an admin! First office job. Not really bad, time passes so fast. Too bad the salary is like shit. Lol. Just have to bear with it now I guess. Baby, I promise... When you're out, I'll definitely try and give you the best. Love you. Life is getting more stressed, but I Believe still we will make it. Dearest hubby, im happy that survive these years, and has begun the next stage of our relationship. I just hope we would cherish every second and make it count. I love you.




Sincerely, 
Michelle.