started work a few days.

quite okay.

1 week 2 days off for retail line hard to find yea?

lol.

and dear, i dont despise you cos you're out of job now,

and pls remember there are alot of other jobs out there.

its not the end of the world.

can please cheer up...?

its hard for me to concentrate at work you know...

hais.

sometimes im thinking...

do u need me? or do u actually need the things i can do for you?

cos you change whenever you have something in substitute.

i donno. so confused.

gd nites.

http://v.youku.com/v_show/id_XNTQwMjU1OTY=.html

this is a video of a damn fucking ccb knnb heartless father, slash his own son's eyes.
nnbbbbbbbb.
fuck. if my husband do that to my son i sure tong gui yu jin with him lol.

I feel like going every place with you,

having memories in each places we go.

Take alot alot of pictures together.

and keep them in my heart.

I want to go zoo, night safari, escape, birdpark, fishing, prawning, underwater, sentosa, wild wild wet, chalet, cable car, cruise, travel, flyer ride, movies, ice skating, k box.

so many so many places.

some places you say 2 person very boring.

& you don like watching movies ; waste of time and money.

but whats about romantic?

like you know, if you think 2 person life is very bored,

then how? get 5 girlfriends and go together?

sometimes i really wish to tell you,

"stop taking those stuffs! i wan to go zoo!!!!!"

but you only want to enjoy them, fiona. kelly. esther.(note - these are not humans.)

michelle leh?(this is human.)

whenever i see ppl blogging bout where they went for their anniversary,

which restaurant they went, what present they recieve,

i feel so jealous.

but never did i blame you for that,

cause financial is a reason.

i know you will say " if i got money i oso can bring you anywher!"

but look... when you have the money...

where it goes?

im not blaming you here...

i know its partly my fault for being so lazy also.

lols.

its just a little kids-cant-get-lollipop rants.

and we're going lucky plaza tomorrow right!

i know you're working hard.

i appreciate that really.

jiayous ba. i'll be soon working hard too. (;

i still love you afterall =p

oh damn why vanillia and rou cant play twilight...

arghhhh zzzz

oh mayb i should join them in xdreamer.

but i'll be starting work soon too.

so hmm no point ba.

already getting stressed up even before starting the job.

~.~

my everyday goal used to be waiting for my dear to come back home,

guess after i've started work i will be looking forward to going home and sleep everyday.

hahas.

i want money money $_$

bye buddies.

wtf is wrong with friendster uh?!?!

im left with like 15 friends.

PATHETIC.

im quitting it. roar.

fan si ren.

R.I.P Kei Lok

o9/11

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Back together lol. What's new?

Went to pick up dear from work, and pester him to bring me along to meet his fren.

aha. =p

After some transaction(lol), we took train to calvin's house,

and on the trip back, i told dear i had a audi couple but broke off when we got back,

he was fucking mad.

oh well but i manage to persuade him with my tears and stubborn hugs.

lol.

im sorry la, no next time la.

Met Vanilla, Kevan, Edwin, ZiYi, Charlene, Calvin and his campmates.

its been real long since i saw them, was quite happy.

had a party over there, althou its kinda ending when we reached lol.

dear seems very happy too. i know he is.

cos he wanted a proper rave so long.

but its so hot! Sahara desert!

Think his air con spoil or something.

dear had a lil heart to heart talk with ziyi,

his fav bro.

oh well, he's just so funny la.

went to find uncle round around 4am.

slacked at maconalds at pmall till 6+am.

took cab, home sweet home. (:

1o/11

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Slacked at home the whole dayyyy wit dear.

11/11

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Got a shocking news,

my friend passed away...

Not disclosing why.

Althou i donno know him well,

or even a long time,

But i know that he's one dam nice person.

He's nice to me, he's nice to everyone.

Help us run here and there without complaining nor rewards.

He's just 20....

Went to the place where he leave us,

some playground in Jurong West.

Alot of his friends were there,

Burn incense money and everything for him at 4am.

He's not my close friend, but when i see how sad is his family,

my eyes goes watery.

Everyone is calling his name....

"安心上路, 要记得回家的路..."

I wonder... how many friends will be calling for me when i die?

In memories of Ho Kei Lok.

May You Rest in Peace.

lol

edited - hmm. what to say? im basically a soft-hearted person. boo.

I think i really need some time too.

I'm really miserable.

Whatever i do, you don't seems to understand.

I'm tired, real tired.

You cant resist the temptation.

I cant control your desire.

Its not that i dont let you go out with your friends,

I'm more willing to allow; if you can control your spending.

I'm a failure girlfriend, i cant stop my boyfriend from spending.

I let him feel as thou he has no freedom.

Yes.

Why? Does anyone understand why?

I dont care how people see me as.

Wilful? Unreasonable? Sticky?

Whatever i've done, its for your own good.

It may let you feel breathless, but you're not the only one who feel so.

And if i dont care about you, why should i do all these?

And who the fuck in the world will care for you?

Regret when you know it.

You dont understand at all.

Lie to me for all you want, i will just act like i dont know.

Thats what you want, isnt it?

iloveyou

I know it seems lifeless; for you.

To stick with me; everyday.

I want you to be happy.

Not sure whether will your happiness comes from me,

Is a little doubt.

I would probably be the last to see your smile,

but always the first to be happy for you.

Sayangssss.

August

red - dont suit

bold - very suit

Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless(oh dear.). Firm and has leadership qualities(being led you mean?). Knows how to console others.(Kill me if ure angry/sad, but don ask me to talk.) Too generous and egoistic. Takes high Pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises(PRAISE ME PLSSSS). Extraodinary spirit. Easily angered(VERY). Angry when provoked(try me). Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious(i jus lost my money ytd). Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts(depends). Loves to lead and to be led(oh here). Loves to dream(but don do. D:). Talented in the arts, music and defense(i sing well :D). Sensitive but not petty(wow finally a way dat truly describes me, lmao). Poor resistance against illnesses(i seldom fall sick). Learns to relax(im learning o.o). Hasty and trusty(depends on you). Romantic(uh uh). Loving and caring(yes i ammmm :)). Loves to make friends(nah i'm shy :x)

im lazy to do every month. cos qi ur blog cant copy! i wrote this myself D: