I miss how you would fuss over getting up earlier than you in e morning.
and not continuing to lie next to you.
I miss how you ask me to cook for you, when my condition is piggy back me to e kitchen.
I miss how you would automatically stay by my side when i cook,
and scolding me for eating too much.
I miss your reaction when i switch to a channel showing horror movies.
I miss how we always snatch our turns to play games,
and how we gave stupid reasons that why we should be the one.
I miss how you are always reaching out for my hand outside,
and strangling me if i deliberately tries to avoid it.
I miss how you scold me for being so careless.
I miss how you always get angry when your frens teasing you and i dont side you.
I miss the attitudes you would give, when i didnt mention to meet.
I miss how you would say " you look tired" when you're the one who is tired.
I miss how we would always talk about everything, anything.
I miss how you would always put your hands under my head,
hugging, and patting me to sleep.
I miss how you would kiss me goodnight without fail.

Too much thoughts, too little words.
im gonna miss all these for 6months,
i showed that im gonna be so fine.
but no.
everyday when i wake up, i wished everything was just a dream.
every night when i sleep, i hope that i wouldnt wake up.
but i cant?
im gonna stay strong till ure out.
numbing myself with all the memories every moment,
but whatever it is, it still hurts.
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