so envy looking at others saying bf giving in when they throw temper...
well, i'm not saying that my bf is not good,
its just that my bf thinks i shouldnt throw a temper.
probably i really should not, cos everytime i do so, he gets angry too. laughs.



i'm just a simple girl who wants to be treated like a princess.
cos i treated you like my prince.

When i was young, i always think guys should love me for who i am,
and not asking me to change for god sake.
Now i'm older, i realise that's all bullshit.
Love is not the only factor to grow old together,
tolerance, understanding and blah blah blah.
If you find someone who tolerates your bullshits, well good for you, and cherish it.
If you dont, make sure your love is strong enough to tolerate his.
Maybe you love someone enough to be who they want you to be,
or you'll become someone who you dont even know.
I never thought i could be like this.
When i look into the mirror, i start to wonder who is this?

I'm old enough to know actually there's nothing you cant,
but you will.
I realised if you really love a person,
your answer would be yes, and not no i cant.
In major problems i mean.
Is it worth to say yes to someone who will say no to you?
Answer lies with you.

i would choose to die in your arms, rather than living without you.

My dearest,
life would be a disaster without you.
How i wish time could stop now.
Don't bring me til the day.
I don't know what to say more; no words can describe how much i love you..




and my dearest bee, pls remember,
you always stand a greater portion.
we thought of you everyday.

whattheF

Dear Mommy,
I am in Heaven now...I so wanted to be your little girl. I don't quite understand what has
happened.
I was so excited when I began realizing my
existance. I was in a dark, yet comfortable
place.
I saw I had fingers and toes. I was pretty far
along in my developing, yet not near ready to
leave my surroundings. I spent most of my
time thinking or sleeping. Even from my
earliest days, I felt a special bonding between you and me.

Sometimes I heard you crying and I cried
with you.
Sometimes you would yell or scream, then cry. I
heard Daddy yelling back. I was sad, and
hoped you would be better soon. I wondered why you cried so much.

One day you cried almost all of the day. I
hurt for you. I couldn't imagine why you were
so unhappy.

That same day, the most horrible thing
happened. A very mean Monster came into that warm, comfortable place I was in. I was so scared, I began screaming, but you never once tried to help me.
Maybe you never heard me.

The monster got closer and closer as I was
screaming and screaming, "Mommy, Mommy, help me
please! Mommy, help me." Complete terror is
all I felt. I screamed and screamed until I
thought I couldn't anymore. Then the monster
started ripping my arms off. It hurt so bad; the
pain i can never explain. It didn't stop. Oh, how I begged it to stop. I screamed in horror as
it ripped my leg off. Though I was in such
complete pain, I was dying. I knew I would never
see your face or hear you say how much you love
me.

I wanted to make all your tears go away. I had
so many plans to make you happy. Now I
couldn't, all my dreams were shattered. Though I was in utter pain and horror, I felt the pain of my heart breaking, above all.

I wanted more than anything to be your
daughter.
No use now, for I was dying a painful
death. I could only imagine the terrible things
that they had done to you. I wanted to tell you that I love you before I was gone, but I didn't know the words you could understand. And soon, I no longer had the breath to say them; I was dead. I felt myself rising. I was being carried by a huge angel into a big beautiful place. I was still crying, but the physical pain was gone.

The angel took me away to a wonderful
place. Then I was happy. I asked the angel what was the thing was that killed me. He
answered, "Abortion. I am sorry, for I know how it feels." I don't know what abortion is, I guess that's the name of the monster.

I'm writing to say that I love you and to
tell you how much I wanted to be your little girl. I tried very hard to live. I wanted to live. I had the will, but I couldn't; the monster was too powerful.

It sucked my arms and legs off and finally
got all of me. It was impossible to live. I just
wanted you to know I tried to stay with you. I didn't want to die.
Also, Mommy, please watch out for that abortion
monster.

Mommy, I love you and I would hate for you to
go through the kind of pain I did. Please be
careful.

Love,
Your Baby Girl.

fuck.

lotsa stuffs.

okay... where shall i start?

did quite alot of things but i forgot the sequence. laughs.
anyway, i was over at joan's house for like the past 1 week,
went home and came out repeatedly. mom is getting used to it lol.
okay lets start with, me and dearest went to bugis V8 movie cafe and have our dinner,
i don have much appetite so i ordered a light one, but it sucks -.-, but dearest said his was sup. well, he likes it can le . (:
appetizer .
dearest half eaten sirloin steak (:
dearest: hmmmm.
my omelette.
me: tasteless~
dearest made me angry by snatching my phone.lol.
went over to edwin's place for elephant with dearest, joan, zy and dom.
nearly died at around 5plus, and they still got the mood to play truth or dare from winwin's iphone. but that night was filled with laughter thou.
went to send zy to airport. keep going hot and cold hot and colddddddddd.
did i mention i really like the feeling of the 2 crazy couples date. hahas.
if only beee can join us. hmmm..

at westmall, haha. dearest with zy, act like only

we'll miss you zy! and joanna is gonna super miss you! hahas.
back to joan's house, concussion. lol
woke up and bee came to find us.

my bee <3 joanna <3

nice? (:

slacked till 6plus, accompany joan to cck buy hicard for zy,
tancheepek! joan ran around just for you, better treat her good!
me too! must treat me good too alright sister! lol.
slept, woke up, den went to cut hair, dearest too.
he like his hair now hoho.
then, back "home" and cu! lols. bee came to find us again.
=p
after that i forgot what happened lol.
dearest keep pestering about marrying him.
well. we'll see ya. lol
he's gonna do something dangerous, i'm worry....
but he say before, he wants me to support whatever he is doing...
i hope i'm doing the right thing.



hell or heaven, i'm with you.

i cant help to laugh at this pic.

Mr tan chee pek.
-
well, was over at 2nd home,
for e past 3 days.
did nothing much.
boreddd.
im missing you already.


i love you too

excited

am at my 2nd home aka joan's hse
lols. waiting for zy and dear to be back,
while nana herself went to NaNa to celebrate her frens birthday.
miss you!